With everything that is happening in the world right now and even in my personal space, only one thing seemed right to do. That was to go off, shut down and out, and just avoid everything and everyone. 2020 has been hard. I have experienced every emotion I know, and even others I still don’t have a name for (perhaps because I’m just unfamiliar with them).
In previous times, half of what I am feeling would make me delete all my social media handles and use another number that only people close to me know, and completely blackout. It’s been completely helpful.
I was going to do exactly that until Monica (a sister) reached out and went like ”I even went searching for your status but I saw none so I thought you’d done your thing again”, and by ”your thing”, she meant me going off the grid. It suddenly struck me that it has become my thing. A thing such that in every difficult season of my life, I run and hide. As much as it is good to be in solitude and reset, it should not have to be a case of running from reality, but that is pretty much the reason (most of the time ) I do go off the grid. That said, I am determined to stay and deal or cope with reality in every other way but hiding.
I have tried reading but it has not helped much. I don’t even have the energy to read a whole book. I love making videos too but I can’t bring myself to do that. Writing is the last thing I wanted to do but when I chanced on the #winterABC2020 challenge from Josyphina, I felt like that was the exact thing I needed.
First, it’s because the topics are nothing I would naturally gravitate towards hence it will give me a chance to try sometime new, and secondly because it is a whole 22day long challenge meaning it was going to keep me pretty occupied. I have missed 10 days already but I am going to write for all the other days I missed.
I am trusting and hoping I can keep my head above the water long enough to write faithfully and I hope writing brings a form of peace and healing.
I hope you journey with me and enjoy this. Thank you for reading. Kindly share and leave a comment.
Till next time,