How are you all? I am hyped and I am excited and I can’t believe Valentine’s day is gone. You bet, I am so relieved I can’t even explain it.
I entered February with a sense of dread and an ache in my heart ( I am not even joking) knowing I was (strikethrough) am single. I had never had a problem with being single but suddenly the mention of Valentine stirred up a yearning for love, not any kind of love, the romantic kind. I wanted so badly to be in love and to have someone to write all my heartfelt confessions to. It was not a fun feeling trust me and I know I was not the only one.
The time will come when your single season will be over, mine will come too, but darling, don’t beat yourself up because you wished you had someone on your own to share val’s day with or even moments after that, it’s only human you feel that you want to belong, it doesn’t nullify or disprove your contentment with your singlehood. It’s fine, it happens, you are human.
Thankfully I had amazing friends and family who kept me pretty occupied and it wasn’t so bad as I dreaded. I had my lovely sister (who surprisingly have being so cool. It’s either it’s God working to show me love through her or she wants something but she is gathering momentum. Guys it’s scary but I love it) and my friend Cindy (You remember her? From beautifully Made? Go read the post if you haven’t. https://afiyasays.wordpress.com/2018/10/21/beautifully-made/ ). These guys made my February lit, they were so cool I somehow forgot all about my love sickness drama.
Whoever took away 29th, 30th and 31st refused to take away 14th no matter how hard we pleaded so 14th of February arrived.
How I spent my Valentine’s day.
Woke up as late as I could, the clock read 9 o’clock. I wished it was later. I didn’t have any place to be so my hopes of being so busy not to remember val’s day was shattered. I did my morning routine (pray,bath,etc) and went food hunting. I settled on Banku and okro soup and I had 3 solid balls of it. Plan was to be hyper and happy no matter what and I needed a heavy dose of energy for that. I watched movies and tried to read some books. I tried to write too but my mind was clouded with love nonsense, I gave up. I read messages from friends, both forwarded and customised and had some hearty laughs to posts on Facebook about Valentine.
It got very lonely at sunset and I couldn’t seem to shake it off. I called a few friends and laughed some of the loneliness off but I still needed an outlet. I settled on planning for my future and praying for my future husband (that dude will be so blessed,I am even jealous). I focused on Afiyasays,why I started and how far I have gotten and the stuff I wanted to do (will tell you more in a jiffy). Guys, if loneliness can make you this reasonable then we all need a feel of it. I was so glad about how my day went especially since I had the opportunity to look back and restrategise and plan well.
So there you have it, that is how my Valentine’s day was spent. I survived. I didn’t die, I didn’t cry myself to sleep, my day ended with me feeling so fulfilled. Thank God!.
About Afiyasays, I reminded myself why I started. I never forgot actually, I just had a handful of excuses to throw in anytime I realised I wasn’t doing what I really had to be doing. Excuses like, I have to get the timing right, would be better if I start the mental health series on a self hosted website, etc. The excuses are quite tangible but I know they are still mere excuses and if I don’t start now, it might as well be never. So guys, we are beginning right where we are and will improve and get better with time.
The depression series on Afiyasays begins this March. Watch the space for more details.
I love you guys, I bless God for my life and all the blessing he has giving me,including you in my life. I cherish you.
How did you spend your val’s day, I would love to know.
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Till next time,